Yea title says all. Perhaps my faith wasn't putting enough through because I'm always wish everyone can go in as pilot, but eventually I ignore my self presence. Knowing that some of my friends had been invited into second stage. The fact that I'm too worry about being dumped started to felt. I know that I'm not that capable, as I know I'm too naive sometimes.
But I do wish everyone, that they can enter all the stages and pass all the stages, helping me realize my dream of flying. And now I have to pray and plea hard, that the moment of sending the email to me on inviting me to the second stage of cadet pilot programme. I'm know that even if I'm not really fit for the cadet pilot, but at least I'm really trying myself, that I can be part of them in the sky.
My lord, Jesus, I know that I'm not perfect enough to be part of them in the world. I have failed to comply your path that I felt disappointment and anxiety for the time being. But I really trust and love you, Jesus. Because I know that you are the one touching my head and say I'm the kind and helpful one, and the destiny I hold will be far away greater than my present situation.
I remember that even a special and gracious miracle will happen, which is granted from you, Jesus. I confess my whole sin to you, that I'm lazy, I'm easily give up, I always build up anxiety when I'm in rush, I'm wasteful and some of my forgotten sins that I had done. Learning myself that I'm not capable enough to show my skills. But Jesus, I thank you for keeping nourishing and telling me of your soul, that I have to be never give up of my dream. I know I love planes when I was small. I felt excited when the planes fly. And I even felt so excited when I saw pilots in the cockpit.
My father, I wish the day when I'm really be an airline pilot, I will have my most happy day throughout the entire life. And I ask Father to bless everyone that will be going for second stage cadet pilot programme with bravery and wisdom.